Day Eleven - Phase One

Wow! Almost two weeks have gone. Now - you all know it hasn't been a smooth "almost" two weeks, but we are almost there. I have good news!! I played Wii last night! Yeah - exercise! Okay - for those that have not had the privilege of being subjected to the world of Wii - it is very annoying in ways - first you do a body test - this is where it measures your body mass index based on height, age, weight, etc - it also measures weight, flexibility, balance, and gives you a chance to set a personal goal for yourself. Okay - now if you don't use it for a while it starts hounding the others in your family that play regularly with things like, "I haven't see Mom in a while. Does she know that in order to reach her goal daily activity is key?" It also takes your weight and makes your "mini me" as big or as small as you are. Let me just say that one month ago when I got on the Wii for the first time I was HORRIFIED when my "mini me" was expanded right before my eyes to represent how large I really am. I kid you not. She became a round beach ball with legs. I don't know if any of you are like me, but I can look in the mirror and tell myself I look good in certain things - then other times nothing looks good on me - it is like the scales have been removed from my eyes - this was one of those times. It did not motivate me though. It might some people, but not me. I respond to positive - not negative. Negative makes me want to do the wrong thing (eat more) even worse. So, seeing the inflated mini me made me go on a two week ice cream kick. I say made but we all know the truth in that - or are beginning to.

So - long story short I am excited that I did that last night - and this morning - down another pound. I don't know who was more shocked last night - the Wii program, or me, that according to it - since I had been on there last I had lost 6.8 lbs. According to my scales I have lost 7. I like the 7 :D

Last night my son and husband built a fire - it was great - great spending time around it, playing with them all, playing games, eating supper down there, just basically hanging out. I did have two squares of 'smores with the kids and didn't even feel guilty - just enjoyed them - but they didn't taste good - not at all, and I usually LOVE them. What I did feel wrong about was eating two more when everyone had gone to bed. Why did I do that? I don't know - I wasn't hungry - I didn't even like the first two - who knows. All I do know is that I would have been just as well off with my fudgesicle. Oh well - this is all a learning process.

Menu:
Breakfast: .75 oz of cashews and 20 oz of water
Snack: two pieces of turkey bacon and water
Lunch: Chicken salad, bell peppers, broccoli (these are in the Green Giant "Immunity Blend" microwave veggies - I just took out the carrots and threw them away after I cooked it) the chicken salad I made from canned white meat chicken in water - light mayo, celery, salt and pepper.
Snack: Sugar Free Jello
Snack: Fudgesicle
Supper: Small salad with tomato, lettuce, three pieces turkey bacon, shredded cheese (not even 1/4 cup), and light Ranch dressing (maybe two tablespoons) I kept the salad small knowing I was having a 'smore with the kids - just really hadn't planned on three of them (I know, "where there is no plan the people perish.....")

Suggestions:
1. PLAY! How fun is that - it reduces stress - your kids love it, you make memories - it is great.
2. LOVE! If you are married - this is so important - physical touch may not be your love language, but God made us to need the touch of others - especially those we love. If we don't get this in a healthy way we may overcompensate for the lack of this by shopping, gambling, drinking, eating, etc - you fill in the blank. So make sure you are attending to this in a right way!
3. Thank your support system once again for seeing you through and bearing with you.
4. Don't forget the plan for the 10 lb mark.

Even though we are almost at the end of Phase One we should not let this be the end - we can hopefully carry over these habits into a new lifestyle - having shed some of our dependence on food for that comfort or help with mourning or celebrating we thought we needed. God is there and will always be there. He is the same - He never changes - He is steady and faithful - a Solid Rock. Not so with food. So, do not be fooled by the enemy - he is crafty - he studies us, he knows our weaknesses and wants us to fail and be pulled away from God - if the enemy can keep us ensnared with guilt and condemnation then he is succeeding in the battle - stay vigilant against it - use the Word to speak against it.

Here we grow!!