Day Eighteen

"I am the Lord, I am the Lord, the merciful and gracious God. I am slow to anger and rich in unfailing love and faithfulness. I show this unfailing love to many thousands by forgiving every kind of sin and rebellion. Even so I do not leave sin unpunished, but I punish the children for the sins of their parents to the third and fourth generations." Exodus 34:6-7


I picture God here, walking in front of Moses, hands clasped behind his back, serious, but loving expression on his face and then turning to look right at Moses at the end - and Moses falls to the ground - as much from the words God says here as from looking on the face of God I think. These verses really give me pause. I look at my own family. I see this. The choices that have been made and passed down from generation to generation - until someone steps up with the strength and humility required to break the generational curse. It could be something like alcoholism, drug addiction, infidelity, abuse, negativity, or overeating - or it could be something completely different that you personally see as binding to you or shameful and interferes with your walk with Christ. Don't worry - you will know if you have anything. What I want is to break this eating thing in my family. I believe in doing so, healing will be passed from me to my children. The irony in all of this is that my youngest child has serious food allergies and even still cannot eat much of anything, and has to be on special formula that costs almost $500 a month. He is only five. If this continues, who knows how much the formula cost will be. I do know that no matter what, God has always provided and will continue to. I just see now that we can be completely free - and I want this!!

So, my menu for the eighteenth day was not the worst, but also not the best -
Breakfast: Chicken salad (still have leftovers)
Snack: Water/bacon strips (three)
Lunch: Chili's Southwest chicken salad (no dressing because it had tortilla strips on it, but it was flavored enough that no dressing didn't bother me)
Snack: Fudgesicle
Supper: Poorly planned - out in traffic - ended up grabbing a small bag of M&Ms at WalMart and eating them. I was famished!! I also had eaten a reduced fat/calorie slice of cheese before I went thinking that would help til I got home - Not so.
Snack - fudgesicle.

I did do jumping jacks and push ups today. I know I need to plan my meals again - I have become bored with my current menu at home and I know my family has to have - so I am going to revamp that. I am excited about the possibilities using flatout bread - I can have pizza!!
So - that is my goal for this weekend. To make a new menu. I have these cheesecake brownies that I have had in the freezer since the 28th of January - promising myself and my family that we could eat them on Valentine's day. Why are they so special? Well, first they are my favorite thing from Edgar's bakery here in town, second, I just really had good intentions in the beginning - of staying "sugar free" until the day of Valentine's. But, alas - I have fallen short of that - so onward I trudge. I am going to have one - on Valentine's day, with my husband and kids, and enjoy it. I am also going to have something healthy like fish or steak or something to go before it.

Keep up the good work - keep the planning going - shake things up a bit so you don't become discouraged. God bless your efforts in Him!