Day Eight - Phase One

There is a verse in Proverbs that says, "Pride goeth before destruction." KJV
How true this is for me. Yesterday I was celebrating having successfully completed one week. That is a success, especially for me - the one so challenged to stick with anything - but then I don't know if my brain panicked - or if I panicked. All I know is that I got out of my "normal" weekly routine just a little and before I knew it I was ready to pack it all in. I do mean all. I wanted to eat a carton of Moose Tracks, I wanted to eat the bread my daughter made, I was irritable with myself, short with my kids, and basically feeling lousy.

Now, I said I wanted to. Only by the grace of God did I not. ONLY. Because He knows how much I wanted to. So, I didn't really do well - but I didn't completely fall off the wagon either. I just know my flesh is not dead yet. Wow! What a difficult battle this is! I also know that I am sort of tired of eating good and shopping for what I need to eat good. You know - the fresh veggies, etc. Am I just a slug? Wow? I really hope this isn't what this means. I have really enjoyed cooking for my family. I really have. I have gotten up early on Saturday and Sunday and cooked for them - three meals both days - then yesterday - it was like my body wanted a vacation from all the "good" it has gone through.

As far as weight goes I got on the scales this morning feeling sorry for myself and expecting the worst. No loss, no gain. So, still a total of five pounds gone. I am aiming for more. I have had to step back this morning and reevaluate what I can do differently to change the number on the scale and my attitude.

Menu:
Breakfast: 2/Egg Salad and three pieces of turkey bacon
Snack: "Pink stuff" (described in day seven post)
Lunch: (here is where the downhill slide began) Wendy's spicy chicken go wrap
Snack: "Pink stuff"
Supper: "pink stuff"
Dessert: fudgesicle

How healthy was all of that? Not. I know. But, definitely a chance for me to practice self forgiveness and starting over.

Suggestions:
1. Be quick to forgive and slow to condemn
2. Just have one bite, if you can't do that, then put it in the freezer, but don't substitute what you really want (chocolate) for something else that will not be good enough and then you over eat on that thing.
3. Look forward to phase two - more variety is in your future! Even ice cream (within reason!)
4. Keep up the good work - and you ARE doing good work!


PRESS ON!!