65 Pounds to go

Maybe the title doesn't cover everything, but it is a start. That is what we all focus on, right? The pounds? I know I do - if you can give me a guaranteed pill to swallow - tell me it will not damage my heart and lungs, will curb my craving for carbs without the nasty flatulence to go along with that - then I would be all over it!! But, alas, so far there is no such wonder pill. It has taken me years of self indulgence and gluttony to get here, so I am not sure why I feel it can all be "undone" in 90 days! (it hasn't been 90 days, I am just poking at the diet fads that harp on that). For me - I have been seriously moving forward - with multiple steps back - for almost 78 days now. I am still down 16.5 pounds. I know if I would incorporate exercise I could be down further, but I haven't so this is the price I pay.

I can't say I have enjoyed this whole process. I am so glad that I have begun it though. I do have a different way of looking at food, and a knowledge that food will not disappear from my life forever just because I do not partake of it at that moment. I am trying to be healthier and instill healthier habits in my children. I am also trying to let them see me share - where once I kept things for myself. How awful is that to admit? Yep - really bad. But, they have noticed the change and have even commented on it. Sad, huh? Oh well - we will all be better off in the end.

My goal is still the same. I want to be free of my addiction to carbs and sweets. I want to also have lost 80 pounds. And, as much as I dislike exercise, I want to shape up. To me that means being able to play, swim, walk, and ride a bike at a regular pace without being winded. Not too much to ask I don't think.

Blessings as you move forward!!

Moving Forward

I have stopped counting days - I don't exactly know when I stopped, maybe around the time of my last entry, but I have stopped. I no longer think of this as something with a beginning and an end. I really now think of it as a lifestyle. That is the goal, right? I am not saying I am perfect, and I am definitely not saying I have lost the total amount of weight I need to, but I see changes in me. I feel the changes in my choices, how I look at food, and in the fact that I don't have that burning, "get out of my way" need for something sweet at the end of the day like I did even three weeks ago.

So, here I am, on March the 2nd, and really praying that these "feelings" (which I know can be deceiving) are here to stay. That the changes that are positive inside me are permanent. That I am on the right track - moving forward - and that four months from now - one year from now - I can look back and say - "Yes, I remember the moment my heart changed."

So, all that being said - I still am waiting on my heart to get on board with exercise. Unfortunately, I really think God is waiting on ME to get on board with exercise. Funny, huh? Well - I keep packing my workout clothes and they keep not getting used. My intentions are so so good though! :D

I am down 16.5 lbs this morning. If I could exercise and completely lay off chocolate and sweets I know I could be down more, but - oh well- this is me for now - and I will forge ahead, with God's help.

Again, I am so very thankful for my support - from my husband most of all - and from those that have commented on the changes they see outwardly, but I know they are only the result of the changes from within.

Blessings as you move forward!